In these last few weeks, I sold everything that I once was attached to (my bed, my dresser, my car); everything that I allowed myself to define myself with.... gone... sold....gave it away.... it was not an easy process... to "let go" of everything that I had accumulated for last 5 years, all gone in one week.. pooffff, just like that.... to "let go" of the only place that made you feel at home (San Francisco) cause it actually accepted me "just the way I am", was not easy. To let go of my friends that became family over time and to those close relationships that became bonds of lifetimes....I will always hold those memories and cherish those moments that I spend in my beloved city San Francisco and Mill Valley
Now here comes reality: PHEW..... what a relief.. .man..... that city weigh you down.. haha... no seriously... as much as I love San Francisco and trust me I really do, I have only one thing to say, it is one expensive city and really drains every ounce of you financially specially when you are trying to make a living, or even thrive there...oh, i thrived there all right... but it still felt like I had tons of bricks on my shoulders that i was carrying while i was still trying to make a life happen...Now dont get me wrong: I would never exchange any of my experiences that I had in that city, but i for sure feel a burden off of my shoulders as I move forward on my journey... :)
Last few days I have visited my close friends Neha in D.C area, Harold and John in Tampa and now in New Jersey with my relatives. Can I just say what a relief it feels not to have to worry about things in life. Not to have to wake up and be at work... that mundane life that did not make any sense. My old company was amazing in letting me work for them for 2 years but man.... that was sooooooooooooooooooo not me... and now that I am out of it, and the fog has been lifted and that I have crawled out of that cave, I feel so free... as if, I am allowed to breathe fresh air again... some people are just born to be on the road.. some people are just born travelers... i for sure feel like one of those people.
I have had some amazing moments with kids in last few days. Yes, you heard it right... Kids... In D.C, my friends kids who are 9 and 4, showed me a whole new world that I was unaware of. I got a chance to dance and learn bollywood choreography, from a 9 year old... how amazing is that? I got a chance to learn how to be quiet in public from a 4 year old....In Tampa, my friend Emily's daughter who is only 1 and a half, little angel, was the most cutest thing in this world. Her world rotated around, eating, smiling, crying (if she wanted some attention) and pooping.. wow, they really give you a whole new perspective in life, shed light on life.. that life can be that simple and that we as adults seem to have forgotten that simplicity of life.
And now being here in New Jersey, I have my cousins who are teenagers and it is so interesting to tap into their world. In short, i have experienced 3 different age groups of children and they all have something so new and beautiful to offer that I am only grateful for these experiences and I am happy for the reminder that... "Life can be simple... we just need to allow it to be... "
My experiences in seeing Neha and Harold was that of pure Love. I am blessed to have friends who love me unconditionally.... I am grateful for them.. Need I say more?
Love always... all ways... :)
