Friday, October 26, 2012

Threshold


Threshold: Sometimes we look around us and we think we are the only one's that have gone through hell and back. But the more I look at everyone around me, and listen to what their lives have to say, I realize everyone goes through what they need to, in their own way. For ex: You cannot possibly know what I have gone through losing my parents at a young age and then having to move to this country without really having an option or an opinion. And yet to you it may seem like there is no way possible you could handle all those emotions and turmoil in your life, but then if the tables were turned and I were to be given a situation in your life that was a turning point in your life or life changing /difficult, I may have the same to say, "there is no way I would have survived that". So you see, it feels like we are given what we can handle. Our threshold is something like an elastic rubber band. Sometimes we think, there is no way, I can handle another ounce of sorrow in my life and yet if that sorrow does show up we somehow find the strength to carry on through that as well. We all are blessed with the threshold of what we can, and cannot take. I could possibly not compare my hardships with yours because they are personally carved to teach me something I need to learn. I do believe we come on Earth with a mission, and that is of growing and moving forward in life, spiritually. I also believe our parents and family members play a big role in it. They sometimes push our buttons because they too came on earth with a purpose of helping us grow. Its through hardships we learn lessons in our lives that bring change. it does not always have to be that way but it seems to be the way, specially if we are sleep walking and are not fully aware of our behavior and our actions. Now, if we are fully aware of our actions, thoughts and our deeds, this would be a completely different game.

In short, what we are going through in our lives (tough times) and what we have gone through, is here only to make us stronger, humbler and a wiser human being. Everyone's journey is different. So let's embrace ours just the way it is, without judging it, but knowing that it is merely helping us climb that ladder to awareness/ enlightenment, even quicker. Whether we want it or not, we are all on a journey called LIFE. We came from somewhere else and we will return to where we came from but in the mean time, we have to travel through EARTH and while on it, lets have fun even through our difficult times because before we know it, our end is near and we wished we lived a little longer. :)

Namaste

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Time's flying

Crap. Its already been almost a whole year since I last wrote. So many changes. It seemed like 2012 was full of transitions and changes. I had 5 goals in mind that I wanted to achieve this year and it seems like I crossed all of them off, one by one. Phew!!! What a relief.

Going back to college has been a great change. It helps me not just expand my vision and see things in a different light but also helps me be more part of this so called "society". I felt like I use to be very one tracked mind, "spiritual", I feel like going back to college, balances that out, quite well. Not planning to do this full time, as I do want to open up my own business some day but its a good practice to start somewhere and to get logistics down.

Last one year has been one big learning year. I feel like my life lessons teach me something new all the time and this time it was about Trust. Learning to trust my own gut instincts. Knowing something, feeling it from within and actually acting on it. I have usually stopped at....."feeling it from within" but sometimes not really acted upon it. I guess everything comes in time, now doesn't it? Acting upon my instincts is the next step.

Along with that lesson, I learned CHANGE comes easy to me and I actually starve and thrive upon change as I have had such a gypsy life for most of my adulthood. But as I have started living with my husband I realized that it might be easy for me to make changes and go through them like nothing, but it may not be the same for others who are being affected with it in my life. With that being said, Change is good, but not all the time. Again, everything in balance, right? :)

Another difficult change I have had to make is step from "becoming" and into "doing". I always believed in things just happening and that's not the way to move forward in life if I want to get somewhere. for ex: If i want to start a business, its not going to "just happen". I will have to take appropriate steps to make it happen. So no more living in my "head space" all the time. Time to step out into the real world and invest into more tangible things.

With that said, it has been an interesting ride my friends. Can you believe 2 more months before this year ends, already? Time is flying

Thanks for reading.