Dream....

I enjoy dreaming, specially when my parents are present. I woke up this morning dreaming about them. Dad, mom, myself and Reema, we all were chilling on this huge bed, just talking about life, Karma and Isaac Newton. Love when we get philosophical. Its rare I dream about all four of us together but this morning's dream had all of us.... Huge smile on my face.

Knowing me...... I started our conversation on Karma, about what "goes around comes around". That we cannot hide or run away from our actions anymore........ that no matter what we may think, in the bigger picture of our life it catches up with us. We may think our actions do not have consequences but think again........ If you think you are separate from the person next to you, then stop and ponder... Cause there is no one else here besides YOU... so, there is no one else to hurt but YOU. We are ALL One on this planet, WE all come from the same higher power... Yes, we may have our bodies that separate us from the person next to us but that does not mean that s/he on the soul level is far from that circle of life or that what we do does not affect the other person. So, next time we take an action, let's think twice of who ALL are going to get affected besides us.... let us live in Awareness of our thoughts, our words and our actions.

Dad then jumped in (my dreams) and shared that Isaac Newton only notarized the theory of Karma by adding "Every action has equal and opposite reaction". Makes sense.... He brought Karma and actualized it by theory of Physics. Karma is spiritual and man has come to an age where s/he needs proof for everything, so he took the formula of Karma and made it science proof by adding, that no matter what, Our actions have consequences........ So lets be aware, and live in awareness of our thoughts, our words and our actions. What goes around comes around.... When we hurt others, we are actually hurting ourselves.....There is no one else here but us....We ALL share the same soul...we are ALL ONE... Only different bodies that disguise themselves as separate....So let us not be fooled by our physical separation cause underneath that layer of illusion, WE ARE ALL ONE.

Love

Day in a life of Pankaj bhai

So, by now everyone knows that I have moved to India. Its common to have helpers (servants) in India who help you maintain your daily chores and lavish lifestyle that most Indians enjoy. I was wondering what it must be to live their life even for a day.... and the more I looked our own "helpers" life closely, whose name is Pankaj bhai more it resembled mine when I was in San Francisco.  I was Pankaj bhai in the U.S but a high end one.

Poor guy.... the moment he walks in that door at 8:30 in the morning, he is already bombarded with requests and favors of what needs to be done. I specifically recall walking into my work, and the moment I usually did, i had people asking me for favors the moment I stepped in..."Falguni, this needs to be done, how do I do this". Luckily, I could stop my coworkers and ask them to back off and come back to me when I had a moment to breathe the reality that I had just arrived at work, but Pankaj bhai does not have that option. The moment he walks in through that door, his work begins right then and there.

I had the opportunity to chillax at work and be on facebook but this guy is pretty much on his feet all day long and working his ass off without a complaint. And he is always smiling, love that about him. I give it to him. You should have seen me at work. Coworkers trembled approaching me cause they all knew they were going to get yelled at, in a loving way :) I respect the fact that Pankaj bhai has to leave his family in the village to come to the city and find work, sort of what mostly all hard working Indians have to do, may that be having to leave India and move to U.S to support your family or may that be leave a small village to move to a bigger city in search for work. In short, no matter how you see life, I think we all, middle class working folks live a life in Pankaj bhai's shoes. Some have it easier, some have it more tedious but regardless we all are trying to live a life, make some money and have a roof over our head and people around who love us. Lets not take our servants/ our helpers for granted; they too happen to be a reflection of our lives, of what we might have gone through in our lives or are going through in that case. We all are working for the "man/ the money" and its never easy when we don't have a choice.

I don't know why I wanted to blog about Pankaj bhai but I guess I just wanted to bring awareness to those people/ helpers/ servants who make our lives much more easier for us by working ten times harder for us and yet only earning less than half the price that they are worth of. Let's appreciate them, let's be nice to them cause somewhere within all of us, lies a Pankaj bhai.

Love

Revolution

Feels like everyone is reaching a threshold of "living a lie". We all reach that saturation point in our lives of what we can take and what we cannot take anymore. Yes, for the longest time society has dictated of how we should live and conduct our lives and we have done just that to either please our parents, our friends or the society but I feel like the more I talk to all my friends, more they reveal that they too have reached a threshold of where "living a lie" is no longer an option. and the awakening is happening at a "mass" awareness. We all are waking up and saying, "we no longer can live this lie anymore". and guess what??? we should NOT have to, in the first place, could that be in your job, in your relationship or in your friendship. Its time for us and our generation to change the world we live in. Let's bring awareness not only in our actions and the way we think but also in the way we live our lives.

Want to share something: I dreamt about Krishna few days ago. It was an absolutely beautiful dream. Krishna appeared and said, "Falguni, I could not be Ram (Indian God) in Tretayug (Era/ Time Period), I was Ram in Satyug (Era/ Time Period) and I could be him only in that Yug (Era), during that time zone, but in Tretayug, I had to be someone different, I had to be Krishna (Indian God). What do I mean by that? That In Satyug, I was honest, super dedicated and the King that everyone loved but that era, that period no longer existed, thousands of years later, Tretayug showed up and I had to come back to Earth and when I did I came as Krishna, someone completely different than Ram. If I can move and change and be someone else through time and different eras then why can't you and your generation. If I left behind old ways of being when I left Satyug then why can't you leave old way's of being from Tretayug to Kalyug (Era that we live in now)????. After all, you now reside in Kalyug and it is a whole different time period. Why would you want to drag yourself through another thousand years living old way, that no longer serves purpose to who you are now, in Kalyug. If I changed through time then why can't you and your generation change through time?
I asked Krishna, well we need you to help us make that change. When are you coming back to Earth again? He said, he is not coming as ONE person anymore. His answer was, "I came as Buddha, but you made me a religion, I came as Jesus but then too you made me a religion. I was about Unconditional Love and you misunderstood and made me a religion. No longer will one man serve the purpose anymore. You need to wake up in masses. This awareness needs to be brought within every living human soul. I am no longer coming to Earth as one man, I have distributed myself in millions of people world wide and am showing up everywhere as light workers. It is going to take ALL of you to wake up, to see the God within each one of you. There are light workers everywhere on this planet and when you see the light within you, you pass that torch to another being so that you can light them up as well and so that they too can see the light within them, stand their ground and speak their soul's truth. That is your job. You are a light worker and you are my light. You are no longer alone. So go and light up everyone around you until everyone wakes up and see their true purpose on this planet....."

Truth: no matter how difficult and hard it may be, surfaces and reveals itself through time. Its like trying to drown a wooden block under the water. It does not sink no matter how hard we try. In the same way, truth reveals itself in time....

We all are waking up, we all are reaching our threshold of living a lie, we all are realizing that life does not serve purpose "living according to the society" anymore, but instead living according to the "soul" within. What is right? What is wrong? What works for you does not work for me and just cause it does not work for me that does not mean you are right and I am wrong. Matters of heart verses matters of mind. I am learning and I have had to the learn the most difficult lesson in my life lately, "There is no right and there is no wrong. It just is what it is". I also have had to surrender to, "In the matters of the heart, head does not help. I have to put my Ego on the side and let Love guide the way". Ishwara Pranidhanam (Surrender to the Creator)

Love and Light Allways

A week in...

Sitting here in Ahmedabad (where I grew up), sipping on chai and having a flashback of my one week spent in India. I am not sure whether this is good or bad, but it feels like its already been a month since I landed.

This country has changed or I have adapted to its way of being, is still a mystery for me but I do feel a bit more comfortable than I did when i last visited India, in summer. I think the cool weather helps as well. Not as irritated as I was this summer, burning in 50 degree celcius.... Yikes... With that said, let me share few experiences with you.

My observation so far: If you have never been to India, please be prepared to be stared and gawked at to the point where you feel uncomfortable in your own skin. NO, seriously, this is not a joke. People stare at you constantly and make you wonder whether there is something wrong with you but the honest truth is, thats just how it is here. People stare and judge you and that comes easy for Indians. They may not even know you but they have made up a story about you before you even look them back in the eye. That's just India :) Please do not take this the wrong way, people usually are very nice here as well but most of the times it comes with a judgement.

After going for a long morning walk on Juhu Beach in Mumbai, the best part to look forward to was the fresh squeezed juices that you get at every stall, major intersections on the side streets of India. You also get healthy Indian breakfast; ex: Idli sambhar and few other options. Love that about this place. After a long walk, health is right around the corner for you, just Rs. 10.00 away. haha

Another observation: People believe that there is a certain age limit for everything in this country...ex: finish school by certain age, get married by 25- 26, have children by 30 and so on and so forth. In last one week, I realized I actually don't fit in any of these categories. I feel "out of the box". In San Francisco, it was so much easier being 33 and single but in India you certainly have to find your own box.

Yes, I have been experiencing culture shock. Engagements/ Marriages over here feel like a fashion show competition, of who is wearing the latest style and the newest jewelry. Certain theaters make you stand up for the national anthem before the movie starts...All in all, it has been an interesting experience. Still a lot to sit with, to digest, to figure out...Half my life in India, other half in the U.S.  Will I adjust again here or will it always remain a mystery? I guess, we'll find out...

Missing my friends
Love and Light

On the road

 Lets get a little dramatic, shall we?

In these last few weeks, I sold everything that I once was attached to (my bed, my dresser, my car); everything that I allowed myself to define myself with.... gone... sold....gave it away.... it was not an easy process... to "let go" of everything that I had accumulated for last 5 years, all gone in one week.. pooffff, just like that.... to "let go" of the only place that made you feel at home (San Francisco) cause it actually accepted me "just the way I am", was not easy. To let go of my friends that became family over time and to those close relationships that became bonds of lifetimes....I will always hold those memories and cherish those moments that I spend in my beloved city San Francisco and Mill Valley

Now here comes reality: PHEW..... what a relief.. .man..... that city weigh you down.. haha... no seriously... as much as I love San Francisco and trust me I really do, I have only one thing to say, it is one expensive city and really drains every ounce of you financially specially when you are trying to make a living, or even thrive there...oh, i thrived there all right... but it still felt like I had tons of bricks on my shoulders that i was carrying while i was still trying to make a life happen...Now dont get me wrong: I would never exchange any of my experiences that I had in that city, but i for sure feel a burden off of my shoulders as I move forward on my journey... :)

Last few days I have visited my close friends Neha in D.C area, Harold and John in Tampa and now in New Jersey with my relatives. Can I just say what a relief it feels not to have to worry about things in life. Not to have to wake up and be at work... that mundane life that did not make any sense. My old company was amazing in letting me work for them for 2 years but man.... that was sooooooooooooooooooo not me... and now that I am out of it, and the fog has been lifted and that I have crawled out of that cave, I feel so free... as if, I am allowed to breathe fresh air again... some people are just born to be on the road.. some people are just born travelers... i for sure feel like one of those people.

I have had some amazing moments with kids in last few days. Yes, you heard it right... Kids... In D.C, my friends kids who are 9 and 4, showed me a whole new world that I was unaware of. I got a chance to dance and learn bollywood choreography, from a 9 year old... how amazing is that? I got a chance to learn how to be quiet in public from a 4 year old....In Tampa, my friend Emily's daughter who is only 1 and a half, little angel, was the most cutest thing in this world. Her world rotated around, eating, smiling, crying (if she wanted some attention) and pooping.. wow, they really give you a whole new perspective in life, shed light on life.. that life can be that simple and that we as adults seem to have forgotten that simplicity of life.

And now being here in New Jersey, I have my cousins who are teenagers and it is so interesting to tap into their world. In short, i have experienced 3 different age groups of children and they all have something so new and beautiful to offer that I am only grateful for these experiences and I am happy for the reminder that... "Life can be simple... we just need to allow it to be... "

My experiences in seeing Neha and Harold was that of pure Love. I am blessed to have friends who love me unconditionally.... I am grateful for them.. Need I say more?

Love always... all ways... :)